Don't ask me anything about CAP!
i am who i am
12/27/2007 11:35:00 AM
Haha.. It seemed that many are busier now during the holidays than during the exams.. Either that or their holidays are so monotonous that there is nothing to blog about.. For me, both are the cases.. I'm too busy to blog.. trainings.. meetings.. and crunchyroll.. haha.. but since I'm doing the same thing everyday, there is nothing special to blog about.. The blogs that I usually visit were also abandoned for quite some time already.. Sigh.. I have even forgotten about Facebook which I visited hundreds of times a day during the exams.. Guess that everyone will resume to blogging once the holidays are over.. I can't wait for Christmas to be over.. Exam results are coming out soon.. Hope I do well!
i am who i am
12/24/2007 04:04:00 AM
Yesterday was a terrible day that I have managed to survive..
The 2-hour short Badminton training was a killer..
It left me right-handicapped..
Now my right shoulder is aching..
My right butt too..
And also my right thigh..
How horrible..
Only my right side is aching..
I looked up the old dusty JCRC files after training..
From the dust and the cold of the air-con..
I caught a cold that last me the whole night..
Even till this very moment..
I knew that there are people who wanted to help me..
But to re-account the happenings of that unfortunate event..
Is a pain to me..
Even if I did not really bridge the gap..
At least I tried not to widen it..
During the course of irritation..
I might have said things I shouldn't have..
They might have also said things they shouldn't..
Well.. I guessed anyone would go into defensive mode in that situation..
To protect themselves and their friends..
Anyway.. I'm trying to forget about the issue..
But it seem difficult if people want me to re-tell it all the time..
We all know the phrase, "Forgive and Forget"..
I will try to forget..
But forgiving is another matter..
I find it hard as reputation is at stake..
Some people can use a demerit to cancel out all your merits..
While others can ignore your demerits base on your merits..
Unfortunately the former seems to be more prevalent..
Sigh.. I shall live life as the saying goes..
"船到桥头，自然直。"
i am who i am
12/13/2007 04:33:00 PM
I need to have some personal time soon, before I lose myself!
I seriously need a break from all these nonsense!
I am not sure how long I can sustain this..
I must be strong.
I will fight when the time comes for it.
I should not cry.
I cannot.
I will not.
i am who i am
12/07/2007 02:48:00 AM
I don't understand why..
Why is my position so restricting?
Why do people have to link it with my everyday life?
Why don't people give me some breathing space?
Why do people have to make life so difficult for me?
Why do people have to pin-point even the slightest mistake I make?
Why don't people reflect on themselves before they evaluate others?
Why don't people realize that many chances were already given to them?
Why don't people learn from their mistakes?
Why are these people so horrible?
Why can't I be allowed to make any mistake?
Why am I not treated by others like normal people?
Why should my mistakes be blown up when theirs are not?
Why did I even think of giving them chances to reflect?
Why am I so stupid to believe that things can change for better if time was given?
Why do I have this slight feeling of regret now?
Why did I do it in the beginning?
I think I need to search for an answer soon..
i am who i am
12/07/2007 02:31:00 AM
Why can't people just pick up hints that were thrown at them?
Why can't people just try to think of others' feelings?
Doesn't the star's feeling matter a lot?
Why are people just persistent in their own views?
Why do people like to twist others' words?
Why do people like to put pressure on others?
Why do people like to make others feel bad?
Why do people like to make others feel as if it were their responsibility?
Why do personal matters have to be dragged into work?
Why can't people draw a line between these two subjects?
Why do people think only of themselves?
Why do people only care when their "loved" ones are leaving?
Why do people think lightly of problems?
Why do people think of unfavorable solutions and think they are the best?
Why do people think that their plots are invincible?
Why do people think so lightly of the intelligence of others?
WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?! WHY?!
i am who i am
12/06/2007 05:36:00 AM
Yay!
CL2280 is over!
Exams is over!
Half a "year" is over!
Half my University life is over!
Muahahahaha..
i am who i am
12/04/2007 07:48:00 PM
I found out that I checked my emails and Facebook account more often during the exams than before the exams..
The distractions were so necessary!
I would have been bored to death studying if these channels of distractions were not there..
I checked Facebook like every hour..
I checked my emails even though I knew no one would send anything much during the exams..
I did everything except the most important one.. Study..
These are pleasant distractions..
Not like those happenings outside my door..
Even occasional visits by flying insects are more welcomed than them..
Sigh.. I'm so glad exams are almost over..
Though it felt like it was already over since Friday..
Oh well.. Tuesday is the last paper!
Good luck to me!
i am who i am
12/02/2007 11:23:00 PM
