I am having that feeling again..
I feel chained down..
I want to disappear..
I want to escape..
I want to go away..
I did myself bad..
I think I have regretted..
I shouldn't have done so in the beginning..
It seems like I dug my own grave..
I don't know what to do now..
I want to be free..
I want to leave this place..
The grass is definitely million times greener at home than here..
Should I end it here selfishly?
And not care what others say or do?
Leaving them to those closer ones who stayed behind?
I feel evil.. selfish.. and sorry..
I should make a decision soon..
I am still not sure if I can be strong till the end..
I feel that I should pursue my happiness and freedom..
i am who i am
1/29/2009 05:43:00 PM
Not in really in the festive mood even though CNY is just 3 days away..
Went to shop for clothes but didn't really know what to get..
Today is one of the rarest days when I really think I walked more than 10,000 steps..
Shopped at Bugis, then went over to Orchard for more..
Walked till my feet had gone numb..
Didn't really feel anything until I rested them..
Sigh.. Didn't really have the mood to do anything..
CNY clothes shopping is NOT retail therapy..
I think I felt even more stressed now because I am still short of one set of clothes..
This is one of few times I really shop for clothes..
It's like the long awaited fashion show of the year..
Where you get to observe the trends in clothings, bags and shoes.. Of the ladies, the guys don't really differ much..
And there aren't many guys, compared to the ladies, in the family anyway..
For now, I just want to get ready for CNY..
Bah Kwas and pineapple tarts here I come!!
i am who i am
1/22/2009 11:38:00 PM
Just moved back a few hours ago..
Managed to clean quite fast..
The room is VERY empty..
I can even hear my sneeze echo in the room..
Never had such an empty room before..
It just clothes and bags in the cupboard..
Laptop on the table..
Some containers in the shelf..
The luggage hidden under the bed where Yen's boxes used to occupy..
My bolster, pillow and blanket on the bed..
The room is just too empty and freaky..
Wonder if I can sleep well tonight..
I have 8am class tmr.. Sigh..
i am who i am
1/13/2009 12:19:00 AM
Sigh.. The vacation is over so fast..
I managed to get all my desired modules.. Lucky me..
Wasted my Saturday afternoon refreshing pages of the CORS websites..
Quite scary to see that there was an extra bidder at 4pm..
I was crossing my fingers..
I threw all my points in only after close bidding started..
I can see that my bid was the lowest successful bid at the end of open bidding..
All I could hope for is that nobody changed their bids after close bidding started..
The highest was 756 and the lowest was 193 (me)..
I threw all my points in and managed to pool only 699..
Luckily nobody else was as crazy as me..
It would be quite sad to be outbidded and forced to take another module..
Quite sad to be bidding at round 3A as it would mean lousier modules and higher chance of being outbidded again because everyone is as kiasu..
i am who i am
1/11/2009 02:22:00 AM
Hehe.. Just one more module left to bid..
Tomorrow's Bidding Round 2C..
Can't really understand why I must wait till 2C to bid for French..
And it's on a Saturday!
It's just a breadth module for goodness sake..
And I need to waste my Saturday in front of the laptop monitoring the bidding progress..
I will just throw all my points down anyway..
Wonder how much bid points will be needed..
I might need to change lecture slot if it becomes too hot..
Currently taking the thursday 8am class..
I have 3 8am classes if I am successful..
Dunno if it's worth it to do so..
But Xuanyi's taking that slot, so I will have company! =)
Wish me luck! I don't want to spend extra time looking and bidding for other modules..
i am who i am
1/10/2009 12:07:00 AM
Can't believe that school's starting again..
It's Wednesday already..
Monday will be here in a blink of an eye..
I am so lost in the holidays that I lost track of time..
I almost forgot that this is a week of module bidding!
I got reminded during the previous badminton training..
Hesitated on whether to check the progress of my bidding..
Decided to leave it to fate since I am too lazy to go and check..
Read my mail in the night and found myself lucky..
Got all 3 modules successfully with 1 point each..
Hoping that a good semester awaits me..
Wished I can get all the modules that I want.. =)
i am who i am
1/07/2009 02:51:00 AM
Nothing else to do except this..
Not in new year mood exactly..
Just came here to say Happy New Year!
Blah.. A bit the write for the sake of writing.. Lol..
Hope this year is a good year..
Lesser disasters..
Better economy..
Good health..
Satisfying job..
More money..
Happy life..
i am who i am
1/01/2009 01:16:00 AM
