We won and we lost against EH..
It was a good game..
It was terribly stupid of me to allow the opponents to have a third set..
We lost the second set 21-19..
We were that close..
I'm glad that Clarice was there beside me to cheer me on..
She told me not to let them bring down my morale..
Which was what allowed them to play a third set..
Oh god, am I very stressed..
With Sheares Hall cheering loudly at the back..
I was afraid to disappoint them..
Well, we won!
And everyone is happy, though we lost to EH 4-1..
I guess that's what you call a sporting spirit?
I'll be looking forward to the next game against RH on Thursday..
i am who i am
1/22/2008 09:03:00 PM
I'm trying not to take things too personally..
But everything just seemed harder..
The more I try, the more difficult things become..
Every blow is just harder to accept than the previous..
It is getting deeper and deeper into me..
I'm starting to doubt myself..
My abilities..
My values..
My beliefs..
My plans for the future..
My personalties..
Well, I guess I'll have to compress everything in a zip file and hide it in some place just right beside my heart..
It is not something that I can heck care about..
I cannot not care, yet if I care, my life is kind of affected..
Guess that this is just some part of life that I have to experience..
I need to overcome my own feelings..
The need to be tougher is getting more important..
i am who i am
1/17/2008 02:39:00 AM
OMG..
To think that I had a half day today..
I thought I can shop and chill out in peace..
But my mind is like stuck back in hall..
Sigh..
I wanted to spend time with ET..
And to buy CNY clothes before I get too busy..
But half the time I was thinking about what is happening in hall..
Sigh..
I think I'm going crazy..
ET feels that I need a break from hall..
I felt guilty that something is happening back in hall and I'm still shopping outside..
I felt insecure too..
I can picture some puzzled faces trying to search for answers from me..
I can 'see' them looking for me when I'm still in the midst of my retail therapy..
I guess I need a break from this place..
It is starting to freak me out..
Energy is being sucked away from me day by day..
I have lesser personal time now than before..
I dont really like the feeling of doing things for people who dont appreciate whatever is done for them..
No one can..
I hope things can change for the better soon..
Hopefully!!
i am who i am
1/16/2008 12:48:00 AM
I'm losing passion..
Losing the feelings in a lot of things..
I'm wondering if it's me or the world..
There is no longer moods for festive celebrations..
No attachments to things that were once related..
Lacking the motivation to do things..
I'm becoming like a zombie..
A dead unfeeling empty body of flesh and bones..
It is either that I'm becoming more apathetic..
Or that the world is becoming less interesting..
Most probably it's me..
i am who i am
1/08/2008 02:00:00 PM
