Hmm.. I feel weird inside..
I guessed I'm jealous..
I hate checking out on Facebook sometimes..
I see things that make me so jealous of..
There are so many things that others have that I want..
"Why can't I have them too?", I always asked myself..
And I think I have the answers myself..
Either I just did not try hard enough..
Or this is fate.. I just have to accept it..
Most of the time, I accepted it as fate..
I don't like to take the blame..
I make "fate" the scapegoat of my "sufferings"
Maybe I should quit looking at Facebook that often..
It will just make me feel worse.. More jealous..
By seeing how happy my friends are..
Lately, I am unable to be happy because my friends are..
I realized that I have lost that ability to think so..
I should try to regain that ability..
I need to find "myself" who was lost somewhere..
i am who i am
5/19/2009 01:35:00 AM
